"I walk this withered wasteland,
A sense of purpose in each step.
Wherever this path takes us
We'll tread with pure intent."Lord of the Lost, "Ruins"
Some of the names I use for myself are Lecter (mind the spelling), Anemoen (pronounced [ʌnem'əʊn] or [ʌnem'ɔːen]), and Larva. Wierstamann is a last name. I'm younger-to-older transage and a map.
BIODATA
Paraphiliac, mentally ill.
POLITICS
Far left, authoritarian, paraphiliac rights activist.
MISCELLANEOUS
Femme, music fan, a bit of poet, a bit of an artist.
BIODATA
I'm a part of a multiple system, a former protector and a current host. I also have ASPD and identify as a sociopath. I used to have HOCD due to internalized homophobia, and I have POCD for children under the age of 6-7. I suspect PTSD and ADHD as well, but I'm not sure.These and other unidentified mental issues result in problems with my body image and various types of dysphoria and dysmorphia. I have a multi layered perception of my self, largely based around a philosophical concept I call Larva Face, where I am not my body, but a creature that uses this body as a vessel and will outlive it.My sexual interests are also abnormal. The first paraphilia I discovered in myself was the underwear fetish I had when I was 4 or so. Around the same age I fell in love with a fictional deer, and I'm still a zoophile with a preference for deer and cows. When I was 6, I had my first real life human crushes, a girl and a boy my age. I was 8 or 9 when I first had sexual fantasies about an adult. With time my understanding of my own sexuality expanded, and by now I know I can be attracted to a variety of beings, objects, and activities. The main in there is my shoe fetish, but my attraction to humans is also important to my identity. My age of attraction is 11-65. I do not consider any of my non-normative attractions, except for gender preferences, queer. Sometimes I refer to my queerness as a subcategory of my paraphilias.
POLITICS
My main political course of action is paraphiliac activism, but it comes out of my other views.I believe one of the main things that hurts the society under capitalism is the cult of normalcy. The norm is presented to people not only as the statistical average, but as a desirable thing to be, and if you don't desire to be normal, you're going to be mocked at best and demonized at worst. This is how movements for rights of different minorities end up each trying to prove the majority that they're normal on expense of further marginalizing other groups. I do not consider myself normal either as a queer person, as a mentally ill person, or as a paraphiliac person, all parts of my identity add to my inherent weirdness, and I treasure this weirdness, because I fought for it. I believe the norm threatens all non-normative identities, and even queer people can be accepted, "normalized", in a bigoted society only as long as they and the homophobes have "common enemies" like paraphiliacs. Therefore marginalized identities should unite and the norm should be destroyed. It's or to be straight and cis, and it's ok to be queer, it's ok to be paraphiliac, and it's ok to be non-paraphiliac, ok to be female, male, nonbinary, to have any mental disorders and any ethnic roots. The only thing that should define whether you're good or bad is your actions and the choices you make.As a map activist in particular, I'm an activist all the way: I don't believe in peace with mapmisiacs (antis), I don't support any form of stigma or shame, and I insist on treating map attractions with the same degree of respect people give to normative attractions. I am also anti contact - against sexual or romantic relationships between people below 16 and someone much older and against sexual photography of real children and young teens. I have been in the map community and had approximately the same views since the first half of 2017. Right now I am an admin on nnia.space and map-wiki.com.In general politics I'm far left and authoritarian. I call myself both a socialist and a communist, because I see authoritarian socialism as an immediate development goal for the humanity, and then, through transhumanism, a transition into a non-hierarchical communist society. Transhumanism is essential, because, if we want to function without authority and control over the actions of individuals, we'll have to change what it means to be human.
MISCELLANEOUS
I have a range of attachments and hobbies that aren't connected to my political activities or sex. I cross dress - that might be vaguely connected to sex, but also is an aesthetic preference. I do make-up and like jewelry. I'm currently teaching myself to draw, and I've been writing poetry for a while. I like reading new ResearchGate articles on paraphilias. I used to actively engage with fiction, such as books or cartoons, but currently I am unable to for mental health reasons. I still write my own fictional stories and share them with friends. I have a very emotional attitude to music, and I feel like it's worth listing my favorite bands, in no particular order of preference:ODDKO, Lord Of The Lost, Black Veil Brides, OOMPH!, Motionless In White, Mora Prokaza, Hollywood Undead, Like A Storm, Schwarzer Engel, Shinedown, Sabaton, Rammstein, Rhapsody Of Fire, Grave Digger, Manowar, Fear Factory, Dyslesia, Judas Priest, Les Sales Majestes, Aesthetic Perfection, Ария, Король и Шут, Civil War, Powerwolf, Deathstars, IAMX, Ludovico Technique, Meinhard, Blutengel, Lorna Shore, Erdling, YOHIO, Darkwoods My Betrothed, Palaye Royale, Apostolica.